Song-Poetry Page

By Chris Aable M.A

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.::Sitting There Still::.

 There's a poor old man
Who sits on a park bench
Not far from where I
Use to live.

He's been sitting there
Ever since I can remember
Ever since I was a
Little kid.

And he looks like he's waiting
For death to come
But I hope it never will
Cause he's been sitting there
Ever since I can remember
And today he's sitting there still

Oh, he's been sitting there
Ever since I can remember
And today he's sitting there still.

I once sat by him and
Asked if he was sad, just to
See what he would say
He said "I never cry,
there's not a tear in my eye
So won't you please go away?"

He said "being free is my destiny
And for that I need
No one but me".

Such a sad soul
For a man so old
So blind he cannot see.

And he looks like he's waiting
For death to come
But I hope it never will
Cause he's been sitting there
Ever since I can remember
And today he's sitting there still

Oh, he's been sitting there
Ever since I can remember
And to day he's sitting there still
.::Struggle to Carry On::.

 Baby!
I spent my life
I spent my love
I spent all my life's blood.

Waiting for the time
When you would say
that you'd be mine.

But I was wrong
Oh so wrong
I wrote a song
Wrote you a song
It wasn't long
Before you had me thrown
Now life's a struggle to carry on!

Maybe!
Thought I could find out
A way to escape.

Maybe!
Thought I could climb out
Before it's too late.

But I was wrong
Oh so wrong
I wrote a song
wrote you a song
It wasn't long
Before you had me thrown
Now life's a struggle to carry on!

Baby!
Maybe it's not too late
Won't you escape with me.

Hanging from a thin rope
You were my only hope
For sanity.

But I was wrong
Oh so wrong
I wrote a song
Wrote you a song
It wasn't long
Before you had me thrown
Now life's a struggle to carry on!
 
 
.::Think About Writing::.
You're a teacher
And I love to learn
Should you let me hold you
Just for a moment,
I would see
Inside of you,
And me.

I would learn
I would discern
A secret that's never told.

You would see
Inside of me
A love deeper than I can show.

Everyone has a story to tell
Open to unique interpretations
Listen deep and listen well
And you'll learn our relations.

Deeply reach and deeply preach
And I will listen very well
For you have something to teach
And your own story to tell.
.::Think About Writing::.
I've seen the sun sit on the sea
With a chained body, but my mind was free.
Wrote a poem, the words were well
Writers write about writing
Thinkers never tell.

Think about writing
Don't leave your thoughts alone
Whether on paper or in my mind
Your thoughts should have a home.

I've seen angels in the clouds
But no one else could see them
So I played my trumpet clear and loud
With the sound of imagination.

I've seen starfish swim
In the eyes of a child
High in the twilight den
I wrote the sight in your eyes
Without paper or pen.

Close your eyes and fly with me
I'll write my thoughts in Braille
Touch them gently
Like a calm sea
And feel the tale I wish to tell.

Think about writing
Don't leave your thoughts alone
Whether on paper or in my mind
Your thoughts should have a home.

Think about telling
Don't leave your thoughts alone
Use the correct spelling
And sing your favorite song
Sing your favorite song!
 
 
.::Thinking::.
 A young heart tossed and torn
Growing weaker with each season
Wanting to die and be reborn
Thinking of life gives him reason.

He goes to the pauper's bar
To get good spirits, not to think
About his life, his beat up car
Give the poor lad his drink.

But he thinks and what a thought
A thought he never thought before
Sell his bed and buy a cot
Or sleep on the kitchen floor.

A commonplace common house
Is where the poor lad dwells
He can't help but appear a louse
Every day is a thinking hell.

Was arrested once as a vagrant
Poor lad, he didn't mean to
His smell was wino fragrant
And he had but one shoe.

Back to the bar his mind goes
And thinking of what he has not
Wishing for the days of old
And dreaming of Camelot.
.::This Day::.
This day is not mine
True, it is here
But it is tomorrow
And yesteryear.

And should I catch it
Would I only loose this day?
Wouldn't time snatch it
And fly, fly away?

Seems time has taken everyday
On it's eternal flight
And left only a few moments
To linger in the night.
 
 
.::This Day ( Part II)::.
This day is one of few
And I must do
What I have to do
To start a life anew.

This day is one of few
I will not squander it
In a bath of brew
That's the least I can do.

For this day is one of very few
And there could never be enough
As long as each one is filled
With the love that flows from you.
.::Time Timing::.
Time
Time ticking
Ticking quickly away.

Rhyme
Rhyming
Rhyming loudly to say:

Learn
Learn learning
Learning is the way.

Time
Time ticking
Ticking away today.

Time
Time timing
Our lives away.
 
 
.::Time to Go Back Home::.
Good bye.
Love is not such a pretty thing
While my life is still in spring
I'll forget the wedding ring.

Don't cry.
Love does not always last
I'm too slow and you're too fast
All good things must come to pass.

Let's do ourselves a favor
And leave each other alone
It's getting too dark outside
I need to go back home.

Don't fight!
I don't want to stay up all night!
Fighting what I feel is a useless cause
Love's no Christmas or Santa Claus.

That's right.
And being alone hold no fear
Pleases don't shed a single tear
Just pretend I was never here.

Let's do ourselves a favor
And leave each other alone
It's getting too dark outside
(Cold and darkness are closing in!)
I need to
Go back
Home.
.::Tonight::.
Tonight
I hope it happens tonight
Tonight could be perfect
Tonight could be the night.

Later
It just may happen later
Tonight when I open the door
I'll be looking for her.

Where
It doesn't matter where
As long as she's there
I don't really care.

When
When it finally begins
We'll remember it forever
Cause it will never ever
Be the same again
When we begin
Later
Tonight.
 
 
.::Truth::.
The truth
Really shines through
When you're with your friends.

The truth
Really shines through
When will the lying end?

You treat me so kind
You show such respect
Until you're with your friends
Then it seems you forget.

When we're alone
You say such nice things
Until you're with your friends
Then your mask is on again.

Are you ashamed of me
Or ashamed of you?
Are you ashamed to let
Your feelings shine through?

The truth really shines through
When you're with your friends
It's most illuminating
It's most educating
When you're with your friends.
.::TV Boy::.
This is a song about a boy I know
About his TV and his picture show
He turns it on and it turns him on good
Get the right channel and he's in Hollywood.

He's a TV generation boy
His TV is his best friend
Not just a toy
Oh Roy!
Why don't you let me in?

Wake up and see
I'll be your TV
Just let me be
And change the channel to me!

When he's lonely the TV comforts him
When he's sad the cartoons cheer him up.
When he's bored there's nothing left to see
He changes channels back and forth to MTV.

He once thought he heard voices in his box
Calling him to join them in the little world
His body couldn't fit in but his mind did
His mind's in there now, happy as a kid.

He will change the channel, sitting on the floor
He's looking for any plastic thrill he can find
But he doesn't know which one he's looking for
Changing the channel, but he can't change his mind.

He's a TV generation boy
His TV is his best friend
Not just a toy
Oh Roy!
Why don't you let me in?

Wake up and see
I'll be your TV
Just let me be
And change the channel to me!
 
 
.::Twilight Dream::.
With the sunset silhouette
Of your head
It's hard to see your eyes.

All I can hear
Is your voice
The rest of the world has died.

And it's cold outside
But your sound
Helps to keep me warm
There's no need to run and hide
There's no need to run and hide.

I can't see your face
But you're beautiful
Without having one.

Cause I can feel your feelings
And they're warmer
Than the evening sun.

Another light brush of black
And day bows down to night
But before the last stroke
Let me bury my face deeply in sight.

Like a child's first prayer
Humble and innocent in the night
Layer after gentle layer
You are one with twilight.

With purple hues and tiny white sparkles
That keep growing more bright
When another light brush of black
Turns twilight into night.

And it's could outside
But your sound
Helps to keep me warm
There's no need to run and hide
There's no need to run and hide.
.::Until It's Time to Quit::.
We were once as one
We were once a friend
Now time has stolen him
Now we're two tired men.

Two tired men
Who must work a busy day
And come home to a busy house
No more time for play.

Most has been forgotten now
Most childhood joys and secrets told
When we wake in our darkened homes
We find that we are getting old.

And the older we grow
The more childfriends are forgotten
All that only a child can know
Is too quickly spoiled and rotten.

Growing old tears our seams
The older we get
The smaller our dreams
Until it's time to quit.
 
 
.::Until You're with Me::.
Water baby
Sexy lady
Modern as can be.

Time lingers
Piano fingers
Dance upon the keys.

Love of my life
I'd have to think twice
Before I'd ever leave.

Life can be bitter as a lemon peel
Sometimes it's phony, sometimes it's real
Sometimes I don't know what to feel
Until you're with me.

Angel singers
Gentle harp fingers
Plink upon the strings.

Eloquent girl
Elegant world
Graceful as can be.

Full of wit
Harvard graduate
Doctorate degree.

Life can be bitter as a lemon peel
Sometimes it's phony, sometimes it's real
Sometimes I don't know what to feel
Until you're with me.
.::Utah Mountains::.
Well it's time to go
To the Utah mountains
It's time to get there soon
If you can't make it mid-day
You can make it by afternoon.

Well it's time to go
To a snow paradise
You know it's long past due
It's time to go where it's real nice
That's the best thing for you!

The Utah mountains stay on my mind
They are my biggest friend
The people there are so nice and kind
It's like being five years old again.

Well it's time to see the angels fly
And hear mountain wind sing its song
It's time for you to climb to the sky
Where all the angels belong.
 
 
.::Was It Worth the Price?::.
Mama, mama, mama dear
I don't understand
Daddy, daddy, daddy dear
Tell me if you can.

Was it worth the price paid in that war?
Are they really right
About what they fight
For?

People still try to justify
But I don't think they can
Let's not let it happen
Again.

Cause there's another Mama, Mama dear
Her tears she cannot hide
And there's another Daddy, Daddy dear
Without a son by his side.
Without a son by his side!
While the angels cry.
While the angels cry.
While the angels cry.
.::What I Need to do::.

 Now my dreams are dust
Love is suppose to be trust
I still love you despite your lies
I guess a weak love has to die.

I spent many nights
Dreaming of us
The dreams are dying
And I'm crying in the dark.
I was trying to read between the lines
And trying to read lines that were never there!

Thank God for my own world
Cause your type of love never lasts
Thank your lucky stars girl
You've made another good pass
You were sly yet so cold
What secrets remain untold?
I've got to forget about you
That's what I need to do.

Weeks went by, you never called
You had me climbing all four walls
I would have done anything for you
Now that your gone there's nothing to do.

Rainy lonely days will pass by
My tears will sooner or later dry
And as it gets longer
I'll keep getting stronger
On that I can rely!
I'll never read lines that aren't there anymore!

Thank God for my own world
Cause your type of love never lasts
Thank your lucky stars girl
You've made another good pass
You were sly yet so cold
What secrets remain untold?
I've got to forget about you
That's what I need to do.
 
 
.::When I Begin::.

 When I begin
To begin
To love you.

Where I begin
To begin
To give.

Why I begin
To begin
To love you.

Is how I begin
To begin
To live.

My head begins to spin
My heart begins to beat
My love is like a whirlwind
Twirling at your feet.

How I begin
To begin
To make you mine.

I begin
To begin
At the right time.
.::When We Were We ::.

 You know you and me
Were better as we
When we were we
When we were we.

We used to see
Things we never see
Before we were we
Before we were we.

It was my darkest day
When we went separate ways
We were beautiful as one
Now one less one is none.

We were beautiful together
Our romance use to dance
Yesterday was sunny weather
Give us a second chance!

If you don't, if you won't
I'll spend the rest of my life
Remembering how it was
When we were we
When we were we.
 
 
.::While I Sleep ::.

 Ghostly dream
Electric nightmare
Subliminal thoughts
That come across
While I sleep.

Unknown torments
Hidden away
Never see the light of day
But they creep
While I sleep
They come at night to stay.

I feel like a lost child
In a graveyard at night
No one else in sight
No one to hold me tight
No one to ease the fright
While I sleep.

Things that happened should have not
And they shine brighter in the dark
And I whisper for them to stop
But it's nightmare time, tombstone park.

And the devil sings
His strange songs
And all of his strange hosts
Tie me up in strings
As they sing along.

And so it seems all my dreams
Have me tied with puppet strings
I wish I could stop the things
But I don't know why they're happening.

Things that happened should have not
And they shine brighter in the dark
And I whisper for them to stop
But it's nightmare time, tombstone park.
.::Where Am I?  ::.

Where am I?
Where did I go?
Who hurt me so bad?
I don't even know.

Where am I?
where is this place?
Who is this picture?
Who is this face?

Where am I?
There seems to be
No feeling inside
There seems to be
Only me only me
only me only me

What am I?
Where is this hell?
What makes me hide?
Who is this shell?

Who am I?
How did I forget
to love and care?
What made me quit?

Where am I?
There seems to be
No feeling inside
There seems to be
Only me only me
only me lonely me
 
 
.:: Woe is Me ::.

Woe is me
A child has died
Lost is the love and glee
A thousand mourners cried.

A child unique within his soul
Capable of more than
A thousand kings have done
Worth the sum of all earth's gold
God has taken another one.


.:: Would-Be Friendships ::.

Strangers
Face to face
Only a moment
But
Sharing each face
Fearful
Of eye contact
Or words
Fearful of grace
Unwritten law
That should not exist
States that we should not
Speak
And we should pretend
That we
Don't want to know
each other.

How many years
and thousands of
strangers
have come and gone?
Why can't you
and I
belong
to more
than just
a select few?
What am I
to do?
Busy times
And places
Erases
Would-be
Friendships.
 
 
.:: Your Dream is Coming True ::.

A beacon of light fell upon us
And you know it was long past due
For darkness surrounded us for so long
We didn't know what to do.

On an isolated island of poverty
In an ocean of prosperity
There were those of us who could still not see
You were able to see.

Our forefathers had us on the run
A promissory note of insufficient funds
But now everyone sees the hypocrisy
You were able to see.

You were able to see
That all of God's children would sing
And freedom would ring
Louder than it ever had before!
You were able to see.

Cause you had a dream
Much better than it seemed
Because of you, freedom rings true
And much louder than it used to
And thanks to you
Your dream is coming true.

Yes, thanks to you
Your dream is coming true!
.:: Afterthoughts ::.

I buy the food
I buy the drink
If I get too merry
I start to sink.

On December 6, 1969
The sixties died
Along with peace and love
Flower power took a shower
In a bath of blood.

Cradle crawlers crawl
Until they're tall enough to fall,
Or until they fall enough to be tall.

There are many fabled tin men
With tin hearts, cold as steel.

I have many trees
In my garden of memories
I have a friend
Who nurtured his trees
And now he has a forest
He is very lucky!
Or is he?

A tree
Never seen
Is it there?
No one cares
No one dares
To take the time

Life's a fast fate
It doesn't last
We never stop
Not even a pitstop

Until it's too late.
 
 
.:: Afterthoughts (Part II)::.

I like it when you smile or laugh.
I love it when it's because of me.
Whether it's with me or at me,
I love it just as well.
For at least I made you happy.

I read in the newspaper about ONLY
one person dying in a flood! "ONLY"
and death do not fit together.
One person's death is one too many
no matter what accident may have occurred.

I pray that there is a heaven
For it does offer eternity
Time enough to finally
Get to know and love
Everyone.
Therein lies a heaven
Within a heaven.

The world is filled with enough
Cold and hard people
Without me
Adding to their number.

When I do things for people
I sometimes expect some degree of gratitude
I sometimes expect some degree of love
But it doesn't come strong enough
Sometimes not at all.
I then realize
That I expect too much
And I realize just how selfish
I can be
Sometimes.
Then I expect nothing
In return.
.:: Dreams of You ::.
A Song and Poem by Chris Aable

This is one of those beautiful dreams
another one of you and the sun
your standing upon a mountain ledge
in front of a double violet horizon

Gently drawing in a net
filled with red-purple
and fiery orange sunset
oooooooo I can't forget

How amazing it is for me
this stardust twilight memory
too beautiful to allow or let
rain color your omni-colored sunset

This was one of many dreams
that became a memory
This was a memory
that became, always me

These dreams moving within
These dreams to dream again
These dreams dancing upon life's shore
give me this, and so much more.....

All of this
gratefulness
for this world giving me you
and all of this deep gratitude.

These multi-colored dreams
within starlight twilight beams
These are the dreams of you
Dreams that I dream will come true
 
 
.:: Alone ::.


Alone
That's how I wish to be
At least for a year or two.

Alone
Free to lift my wings
That's exactly what I want to do.

Alone!
You've got plenty of light
Alone!
You've got lightning in your eyes
And you're lying in the echoes of thunder
Flying over the passage of time
You look for gold
When it's the love
That will cover your body and mind!
Look and find.

Alone
That's where I wish to be
Yes, I've got my empty home.

Alone
My thoughts echo loudly
When I'm in my empty dome.

Alone!
You can always go out
Alone!
You sing instead of shout
And I know all kinds of family people
I know there can be different views
I could be a stray dog
Looking for a home and
Looking for a master to shoot my solitude
But leave me in my heartache
Leave me while I roam
Leave me to my echoes
That echo in my dome.
.:: A Long Wait ::.


Love is like a star
Seen, but oh too far
I reached out and found
That I'm in an invisible jar

So I try in everyday
To make you look my way
The glass around me is so thick
You can't hear a word I say

I lost lovers because of doubt
A two-way losing shout
I want to try all over again
But you won't let me out!

So I try in every day
To say what lovers say
You might break in
And break me, I am afraid.

And I wish I could escape
But you have sealed my fate
If heartache makes time delay
I've got a long, long wait.
 
 

.:: Appreciation ::.


I hear the dark sea waves in the night
and see faint seagulls taking flight
I hear their sea wings ever-flapping
I hear the wavelengths ever-lapping,
and should I listen while you're napping,
I hear your heartbeat softly clapping.

.:: A While Back ::.


Awhile back
You were all that was on my mind
I was young, aggressive yet kind
Your face was so bright I was blind

Awhile back
I could see no past no past or future
My whole life became a blur
I didn't know what had occurred.

I was asleep
My love was nothing but lust
But you woke me up
To friendship and trust.

Now that there's more than lust
We can continue on, as we must
I have righted the wrong
Now I sing a new song
Love has been reborn.

Awhile back
I wanted you, nothing else at all
Everything I had seen, I never saw
I never felt so big yet so small.

Awhile back
I couldn't tell my right from wrong
I didn't know where I belonged
I never felt so weak yet strong.

I was asleep
My love was nothing but lust
But you woke me up
To friendship and trust.

All my clouds were full of dust
You blew them away with friendship and trust
You have righted the wrong
Now I sing a new song
Love has been reborn.
 
 

.:: Checkmate ::.


Checkmate
Too late
I lose again
Lost my only queen
To my best friend.

Checkmate
Too late
He wins again
I got caught
By the onslaught
Of a cruel friend.

Lost mate
Fool's date
And Fool's friend
Beat me at my own game
Will I ever win?

.:: Printed Words ::.


Printed words
Are emotions
In Black and white.

Although they do not have
The color or sound
They are just as bright.
 
 

.:: This Day ::.


This day is not mine
True, it is here
But it is tomorrow
And yesterday

And should I catch it
Would I only lose this day?
Wouldn't time snatch it
And fly, fly away?

Seems time has taken everyday
On it's eternal flight
And left only a few moments
To linger in the night.

.:: The Last Time I kissed someone ::.
(Valentine's day, 2003)


The Last Time I kissed someone
everything around me became hazy
and the only thing in focus was the two of us
and I wanted this to be the only person
who I was supposed to kiss for the rest of my life
because for one moment I got this gift
and I wanted to laugh and I wanted to cry
because I felt so lucky that I finally found it
and so scared
so scared
scared that it would not last
scared that it would go away
but I stayed the course and was brave
knowing it would come and go again or fade
but it was their lust
and unlike real love, lust quickly goes away...
to find another victim who will come out to play

 

  
 

.::   This one and only time  ::.


 This one and only time
how lucky, you and me
in all the world's history
to stumble upon each other
in this one and only time
in this one and only place
the right time and place
both to be never again
 
So in this time and place
I chose to appreciate
Wish you had seen it too
Wish you had seen it too
The strands in your hair that color them beautiful
The eyes that steal my heartbeat and stop my breath
Like stars that fell from the most wonderful night sky
Like a galaxy from the prettiest milky-way depth

But you told me, with your distance, that we don't belong this close together
This once-upon-a-time closeness that
I wanted to feel with warmth and with love
I was weak for awhile wondering if you could feel this feel
Sentenced myself and imprisoned by this, my own ideal

I would have been the tears you cried
I would have been the pillow where you lied
I would have been with you while you grow older
I was your greatest fan when you laughed, when you laughed
I was so happy when you laughed

Wind blows angry when you're lonely
Sun seems to beat so hard
Like in the desert when you're the only
And water seems so far away, so far

I saw that we belong together
But you didn't see, didn't see
You're longing for younger while we're older
So not to be, not to be

I would have been the tears you cried
I would have been the pillow where you lied
I would have been with you while you grow older
I was your greatest fan when you laughed, when you laughed
I was so happy to see you laugh

I've had to quit, given up, was ready and willing to die
But your life and laugher brought me back
oh, how your laughter brought me back
Now I'm focused, willing to live, willing to give
But you don't want what I got
Got to find someone who's willing to love for love
not just for what I'm not

I would have been the tears you cried
I would have been the pillow where you lied
I would have been with you while you grow older
I was your greatest fan when you laughed,
when you laughed
I was so happy to see you laughed

You're greatest fan
even when we disagree
you're greatest friend
you're greatest fan
you've never seen me
only what you see
but you've never seen me
you will never see me
not to be
not to be
one chance
one lifetime
never again this lucky time and place to come again....
not to be
this one and only time
 
This one and only time
how lucky, you and me
in all the world's history
to stumble upon each other
in this one and only time
in this one and only place
the right time and place
both to be never again
 
So in this time and place
I chose to appreciate you
Wish you had seen it too
Wish you had seen it too

.:: My Friend ::.

I'm sleeping again alone tonight
The heart has grown immune to so much pain
No more lonely cries for help
Cries unanswered, tears that sleep

Tears that grew tired of trying
No one left but me to understand
All the nights reaching with an empty hand
Going into myself to hide from it all
Underneath my only blanket of warmth
So cozy being alone and lost inside.

Unheard, untouched, unseen
I'm reaching no one again tonight
Unheard, untouched, unseen
Out of voice, out of tears, out of sight
They didn't mean to be so mean

I think of my friend
How often they don't understand him
Let me make his life easy somehow
Let me make him hear and touch and see
all the things more beautiful
Let me do this for him, for me
See,
He's not just any man
He's my friend

Sometimes when he's not looking I watch my friend
It inspires me to be more than I have been
I dream of the person he'd like to be
I try to be strong for him and me
Let him have all the happiness he deserves
See, he deserves a lot, a lot
Let him grow strong as he grows old
Let him have more than I got
Let him live life without this loneliness
Because I would be less without him
See, I was so tired and so afraid
Of living in this dome I made


I think of my friend
How often they don't understand him
Let me make his life easy somehow
Let me make him hear and touch and see
all the things more beautiful
Let me do this for him, for me
See,
He's not just any man
He's my friend
 
 
 

.::   Those Childish Dreams, Passed Away  ::.
 

Of all the stupid and ridiculous things I have done
the worse was to have fallen in love with a friend
I thought I would be embraced for loving someone
I though we could both cure ourselves of the cruel empty nights
 
But you were much wiser than myself in saying "It's never going to happen". 
I flourishingly thought that the willingness to love was enough
I thought that the ability to love was worthy of love in turn. 
I didn't know, I simply didn't know, I'm sorry, I didn't know   
 
I foolishly dreamed that the child within me would be born again,
Not knowing that there was no one to come out to play.
So I had to learn to live alone and I had to learn not to love
While paying too dearly for the moments I passed near you, unloved-love, unnoticed
 
No flowers for me to give; no sunsets to affix both of our names to
No utter happiness in this darkening world
No sheer feeling of unity between two beings.
No four words called "I love you too" which I have never heard
To hear them now would send me to shock and tremble

I didn't know that you wouldn't know that I love you because of all that you are,
I though you would know that it was also because of all that I owe to you,
That all those nights and days and hours with you gave rise to my love,
That no one could keep me from adoring you, for saving me from falling away
You see, I once was a child who became an adult, who forgot how to play

But I have to know that it's okay that you couldn't love me
Because if you had, I would have loved you a hundred times more.
All the time learning and knowing more about you and caring for you more each day; 
But "it's never going to happen", is what my heart still hears you say
So I had to learn to see you less beautiful, less kind, less good...

I had to see your faults and failures and mix it with the goodness so as not to overcompensate
And not forget that it was your goodness that I loved so much, so soon, so late
You were good for me, but since you didn't know the hell I had been through,
And we all go through some hell, but you were unable to see
That you taught someone to play and dream again and that person was me

But there's work to do, you know, much work to do
And rewards for jobs well done
That's my new joy, that's my new fun
Millions to help, help make the world one

These toys called life and happiness are what you gave back to me,
And some of the best games we play are make-believe and fantasy
I give thanks for this final lesson: That you and I are never to be
A hard and real lesson I must live with and reteach myself every day
And forgive and forget those silly dreams, those childish dreams, passed away.
.::   This Person  ::.

I once met a person
Who saw me
for once, not superficially
Who saw my love, nakedly
Who saw me, this lonely
And who thus gave me,
finally,
some mercy

This person
wanted to love me
but could not make it be
so gave me sympathy
wished me, to be happy
wished for me
not to be lonely

So how could I not love this person even more?
Thank you, person,
for seeing me
even though you and I are not to be

Wish I could have shared
wish we partnered and paired
wish we could have cared
but this person dared not dared

As long as this person is happy
that's good enough for me
this person deserves happiness
and so much more
let this person have everything
that I wish for

For this person helped me
learn this lesson once again
I keep forgetting this lesson, you see
the hardest lesson there will ever be.....
To learn to live alone
with only one empty bed
and one empty home
 
 
 

.::   Where have we gone?   ::.
 

Dreamt that I was napping in your lap
I was warm from your light when I took that nap
Because the sun told me you could fly
I didn't ask why, I just cried, I just cried

The tears gave me a rainbow that gave me awake
But the moon gave the sun another dream to take
And now its my own heart I must teach and tame
Because I used all the words I could to explain

(chorus) 
I was with you for years and thought we were as one, or so it seems
Or was this another one of my faulty dreams?
We were happy as rainbows
We were happy as sunsets
We were happy as free love
The type of love that never forgets
The type of love that never quits
We were won, we were one
Where have we gone?  Where have we gone?

But now I know that all I did was dream a dream
I should have known  this could not be what it seemed
Now I know for you our friendship was just for fun
For me it was as if we were one, we were one
We had won and we could win again because we were one.

There are no words that this love can pronounce
I would give all my love, every single ounce
There were no lies in my love you
My voice gave to give my love's confession
You looked for others, so there's nothing I can do
My confession gave my heart's best expression

So your moon comes back as my sun will set
The yellow noise won't let my heart forget
And all the mercy I would beg or speak
Fell at and melted at your feet, melted at fell at your feet
At first I thought that you were so unkind
But it's unkind to make you change your mind

You could have given me many more reasons to live
You could have given me many more reasons to give
We were one, we were one
Where have we gone?  Where have we gone?
But now I have a reason to go back to my home
And learn to live alone, and learn to live alone
And be happy in my space
With reasons to live, and reasons to give
Alone in my own place.
Meeting others at my own pace
There are many more in the human race.
Who might see the love in my face
Who might see the love in my face
And when I find someone with love in their face
The sun will come out from the rain
We shall be, we shall be two as one
Two as one, as one friend.
 

.:: Learning to be Silent ::.

 
Learning to live alone
is learning to be silent
learning not to announce my love
learning not to hear my love tears
learning not to hear my hugs dear
the hugs you never wanted to hear
 
Learning to be silent
is learning not to hear
all the times you looked away
and chose to hear someone not as near
my promises to always love you
my promises never said or heard
 
Learning to be silent
so it won't hurt again
the promises to be by your side
the promises that we'd be friends
to offer you my very best efforts
to make you happy and content
 
Learning to be silent
so you do not hear me weep when you're gone
so that my heart cannot hear the tears
so that my tears cannot feel and fill my heart
so that my heart will not drown again
into another kind of silence
 
Learning to be silent
telling myself to stop the noise of my dreams
the dreams that make me miss you every single night
especially when the night is so full of stars 
and the sky that we'll never share is so beautiful,
and the other side of my bed where you have never been
is so very cold and so very silent  
 
Learning to live with silence
to not hear my own cries,
that drown away
the unsung lullabies. 
 
 
 
.:: Rainless Flowers That Never Bloomed  ::.
 
Spent life
surrounded by people
but so alone
still so alone
 
Always hoped to find someone
to grow old with
but they left the home
left the home
 
So now we're staying in our lonely homes
where our hearts are safe and warm
our rainless flowers that never bloomed
have never ever really been born
 
If they don't love you, I will
I could
If you would
let me
 
Last time the dream came
was to, too two years ago
way too fast against way too slow
into another arms to go, to go, too go
 
Hope it's about love, not lust
because lust doesn't last around the clocking
love goes all day, all night, never forgotten
We can see it in the lonely songs
 
So now we're staying in our lonely homes
where our hearts are safe and warm
our rainless flowers that never bloomed
have never ever really been born
 
If they don't love you, I will
I could
If you would
let me
 
You won't let us go so warm
You won't let us grow so warm
our rainless flowers that never bloomed
have never ever really been born

 
 .:: Could have touched the sun ::.
 
When I was twelve, saw the holocaust
colder pain fell upon love and I got lost
colder rain fell, this heart was tossed
 
And someone who saw me this tossed and torn:
Said: "See that sun up there, go be loved and warmed."
And I went, dreaming this world could be reborn
 
I found a mountain that might reach this sun
I walked up the mountain, but found I'm the only one
At least as far as my lonely eyes could see
I wanted there to be others all around me.
 
I could see the warmth in the sun, but could not feel
My tracks in the mud became tracks in the snow, so still 
as I ascended, ice brought more cold that would not heal
 
I reached out for warmth with a frost bitten hand
only to find that I was bitten again and again
the trees and their shadows faded to darker land
 
My sole marked the footfalls of my soul
Dreaming this warmth since twelve years old
while this darkness, this wind, breathed more cold

The rain turned to snow, freezing me further
And every flake that falls, my father
every wind that calls, my mother
lost.....            lost....
tried to find warmth but got lost at all cost

Dreamed that green love came from the sun    
who's leaves could have grown a partner, a special one
the winds did not allow a partner to hear
snow blindness would not allow this person near
 
Gold and cold, the dying leaves like ember
I reached out, but this person does not want to remember
the winds of our past interfere with this song
Too late, too cold to love, to live, to be strong

So as I lie on frozen rocks, snow gathers so deep, so deep
why would they not expect me to want this sleep ?
could have saved me by making me a partner to keep
Only needed to climb a few more feet, a few feet
 
We live as we dream, alone, alone
dreaming to touch warmth in a happy home
We live as we die, alone, alone
With this last thought in this lonely tomb
 
I climbed this mountain of life, and now I'm done
I'm the one to blame, the only one
because I dreamed one day we would be two as one
because I dreamed one day I could touch the sun
 





 
.:: Final Love Song ::.
 
I know you don't love me
You told me so
I know you don't want me
So it's time to go
 
And I hope he will love you
The way that I dreamed of
Never tries to rise above you
Gives you all his love
 
I know I'll never hold you
As close, so near
I know I'll never tell you
Words you want to hear 
 
I hope he never hurts you
Something I would never do
Does everything you want to
Because he deeply loves you
 
I know you don't love me
I don't have his face
I know you don't want me
I'll never take his place
 
I'll always think of you
As I fade like this ghost
Hope you're one as two
And he keeps you close
 
I hope he protects you
Your whole life through
Through all kinds of weather
The way I wanted to
 
They say I'll find another
Who will love me too
But never found the other
And will always love you
 
But I know you don't love me
You told me so
I you'll never want me
So it's time to go

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